Be Mine

Lately, ive been having thoughts on my mind

Better tell you given that solitary time

Its the greatest most humble thing a heart will ever find

Just promise me that you'll be mine

We've been, we've been going out quite a while

And baby, the way you move is quite my style

So let me take this chance

And put my heart out on the line

Im just hoping girl, that you'll be mine

The winds of fate dont often blow our way

So lets chase them while we can, oh yea

Our waves are growing stronger while our hearts are getting younger

I think we Can run a lifetime or two

Take this, take this ring i have here for you

And wear it, wear it til both our lives are through

Its the honest, most perfect gift i can gave to you

If you say that you'll agree

Girl if you promise me

I'll give everything i have if you'll, you'll be mine

There will be days like this..

Sometimes I wonder why do I put myself through this. The pain, the hurt, the dissappointment, the baggages, the complication. 

Why must I fall for one who comes with a family who clearly still loves him. His wife still thinks he's here, he needs to be there for her for the kids...What right do I have to take him away from them even when he says it has ended. Do I then have every right to tell him to do certain things for me? 

I know he loves me but could it be because the grass is greener on the other side. Starting with me is starting afresh. But to start afresh is to start with a clean slate. Can I say that to him? But how? This is far to deep and too complicated. He says everything is in order, papers are filed and we just have to let time pass. How deep do I let myself go before its too late to hurt? 

Life sometimes may seem like a fairytale but its truly a lot of work and sacrifices!

So men, women, the next time you find yourself dreaming about living significantly or succeeding in your career or being a better parent than yours were to you, do the world a favor: Go home and love your wife. Go home and and love your husband

Mentoring is a Commitment

It's a commitment whether it's giving your time, access to your networks or lending your support at a talent review. From the start, you have to believe in the potential of the individual to make that investment in someone.

Anchor ⚓

The past is like an anchor, holding us back. You have to let go of who you are to become who you will be.

Speak to us about defeat

Losing a battle or losing everything we thought we possesed will bring us moments of sadness, but when those moments pass we will discover the hidden strength that exists in each of us, a strength that will surprise us and increase our self-respect.

Scares speak more loudly than the sword that caused them.

Quote of the Day

“It takes ambition to go places but it takes passion to power a dream”

Good Morning Upper Changi People

One Step Closer...

As time slowly brings me closer to my dream of working in the States, I am faced with the reality of truth.

What is really driving me out of this place? Have I become so comfortable with life here that I've become complacent? Am I ready to move out of my zone? Am I strong enough to lose myself only to find me again?

On one hand, I know I am so ready for this. To go out there, to grow and let the world shape me to whoever I'm meant to be. To fall but be able to pick myself up. To learn from experiences, mistakes and errors. To lose control but yet be in control. To fall in love and let love consume me. To let myself just be me.

But at the same time, the voice of reason is trying to tell me otherwise. Obviously the fear of the unknown is huge. To move across seas and to start up all over again is definately a significant change. Am I scared? Most definately so! But fear is not going to bring me down. In fact! Im going to use fear to help me instead. To help me be more prepared. To steer me into the right direction. Do I make sense? Or is the meds taking over and Im just uttering rubbish?!

I grew so much career wise in the last 3 years to help me get to this stage. Sometimes I guess I do feel like Im being very comfortable in my life. I dont push nor look for challenges. But then again, looking back, i was faced with so many challenges outside of work which made work seem comforting and inviting. Insane right? Most people wouldnt want to think that work ruled their life. Or have work be a main thing in their lives.

I guess when my dream of getting married at 28 and having 2 kids by 30 didnt materialise, work was the only thing that I had going and damn was I good at it. Work had/has my heart! Sad but true.
This is funny coming from a girl who once believed that you work to live and not live to work!

SO! As I close my eyes and bid farewell to Yesterday, I shall leave a little light on to know that theres hope coming my way. Hope to happiness and right choices. That no matter what happens, I will be alright!

Being Good Isn't Good Enough

Should I try?
Am I strong enough?
Is there time, have I long enough?
Gotta fly and if I fall
That's the way it's gotta be
There's no other way for me
Being good just won't be good enough
I'll be the best or nothing at all

Boston

So this is becoming more real for me and for those around me. The last couple of weeks have been indeed been a roller coaster ride of emotions, thoughts and heart breaking decisions.

So while Boston was and has been just a fragment of fantasy to move overseas and experience work life there, its slowly day by day becoming a reality. And how does that feel?

In not so many words (I think), my stomach has lately been housing millions of butterflies, my head is tangled with so many questions and decisions and thoughts of everyone else, and my heart weighs a ton. I guess in many ways, I'm still doing alot better than others out there right?!

So what am I really saying here? Deep down in me, I guess I was always ready to move. I just needed to be sure and clear that this move was purely for ME. I do need a change in life but at the same time, I need to make sure that this change is not going to be a mistake. Well a mistake is possible but not a huge one that could impact my life. I'm at a good point in life to make this move, but at the same time, its not like something I would do so recklessly.

Here's what I need.

I need a change.
I need to go to a place to learn and find myself again.
I need to explore what's out there.
I need a different lifestyle.
I need new lyrics to my music.

Please help me I'm falling...

In Love With You.

Go for Whatever Makes You Happy

If you are trapped between your feelings and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy.

Unless, you want everybody to be happy except you.

Year of the Snake

Happy Chinese New Year everyone. Its the year of the snake and I'm writing this post on an aiport coach from Narita airport to my hotel. Flew to Japan on short notice for work. Weather now is 6.5 deg. First time ever seeing a 0.5 deg. :)
Journey to the hotel is about 1hr 40mins without traffice! This is going to be a loooong ride.
Just before CNY I went for my gum surgery. A minor surgery but none the less still a surgery!!!
Which mind you involves 2 stitches!!! Surgery was quick and I dare say painless. Surgeon had great steady hands which made the whole experience a fantastic one. Healing process on the other hand wasn't so great. Was on painkillers for 3 days (which reminds me, I forgot to bring along on this trip). Ah well...pray I'll be alright.

Chinese New Year was usual. Only paid a visit to Po Po C's house. She reminds me alot of mama. I miss MAMA. 2nd CNY withouth her. A very big difference I tell you. I miss her most when I travel. She's always the one wishing me well and telling me what to shop! She will always ask for bags or wallets. I know she's looking down on me every now and then praying for Mr Right to come sweep me off my feet.

So Mark is coming to Singapore for a short pass through. He msged me to meet up. Its been 6 years since I last saw him. Far too long.

Manuscript found in ACCRA

Although we cannot control God's time, it is part of the human condition to want to receive the thing we are waiting for as quickly as possible.
Or to drive away whatever is causing our fear...

2013 shall begin with Old Habits

So today i have decided to start writing again. Turning 30 should mark a big start for me or something. Its almost a month into the year and how's that working for me?

I spent most of Jan in New York and Boston with baby and Hui Shan. It was definately a very different experience as compared to last year with Sheena. Although in New York we kinda did similar things, this time however we visited the musuems. They were AWESOME! The American National History Musuem is by far my most favourite musuem. It was soo COOL!!! I could spend the entire day there just soaking up the history.

Met Ms Adeline Koay and Aman in NYC and that was cool. We both have come a long way since the days of Uni. Both of us working and doing well. From the days of Chatswood, I now present to you, Dr Adeline Koay and Business Ops Mgr Nerissa de Rozario. Has a funny ring to it doesn't it?

Well Boston was a whole different story. I kinda knew what that week was going to look like from the well planned agenda that took weeks to build. It was indeed an INTENSE 4-day week!!! But on the whole it was a great week.

Met up with Bradd a couple of nights to understand more about the new role he keeps bragging about. So here's my problem...(if this is even one to begin with).

I know the role is pretty big but I know I'll work my ass off. Its Marketing and I Love Marketing. And this is definately a HUGE opportunity for me to try working in the States which I've wanted to try for the longest time (besides the fact of going back to Sydney).
BUT (is there really a BUT?)
What am I holding back? I have thought it through and while this is a great opportunity for me, I'm not young anymore and it is not as easy as picking myself up and move across the world as it would have been when I was 25. But then again 30 ain't that bad either right?

Am I just coming up with excuses or am I just guarding myself from a failure I can't afford to have?

Here's a picture of us at Times Square.