Losing a battle or losing everything we thought we possesed will bring us moments of sadness, but when those moments pass we will discover the hidden strength that exists in each of us, a strength that will surprise us and increase our self-respect.
Scares speak more loudly than the sword that caused them.
Sunday, April 7, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
One Step Closer...
As time slowly brings me closer to my dream of working in the States, I am faced with the reality of truth.
What is really driving me out of this place? Have I become so comfortable with life here that I've become complacent? Am I ready to move out of my zone? Am I strong enough to lose myself only to find me again?
On one hand, I know I am so ready for this. To go out there, to grow and let the world shape me to whoever I'm meant to be. To fall but be able to pick myself up. To learn from experiences, mistakes and errors. To lose control but yet be in control. To fall in love and let love consume me. To let myself just be me.
But at the same time, the voice of reason is trying to tell me otherwise. Obviously the fear of the unknown is huge. To move across seas and to start up all over again is definately a significant change. Am I scared? Most definately so! But fear is not going to bring me down. In fact! Im going to use fear to help me instead. To help me be more prepared. To steer me into the right direction. Do I make sense? Or is the meds taking over and Im just uttering rubbish?!
I grew so much career wise in the last 3 years to help me get to this stage. Sometimes I guess I do feel like Im being very comfortable in my life. I dont push nor look for challenges. But then again, looking back, i was faced with so many challenges outside of work which made work seem comforting and inviting. Insane right? Most people wouldnt want to think that work ruled their life. Or have work be a main thing in their lives.
I guess when my dream of getting married at 28 and having 2 kids by 30 didnt materialise, work was the only thing that I had going and damn was I good at it. Work had/has my heart! Sad but true.
This is funny coming from a girl who once believed that you work to live and not live to work!
SO! As I close my eyes and bid farewell to Yesterday, I shall leave a little light on to know that theres hope coming my way. Hope to happiness and right choices. That no matter what happens, I will be alright!
What is really driving me out of this place? Have I become so comfortable with life here that I've become complacent? Am I ready to move out of my zone? Am I strong enough to lose myself only to find me again?
On one hand, I know I am so ready for this. To go out there, to grow and let the world shape me to whoever I'm meant to be. To fall but be able to pick myself up. To learn from experiences, mistakes and errors. To lose control but yet be in control. To fall in love and let love consume me. To let myself just be me.
But at the same time, the voice of reason is trying to tell me otherwise. Obviously the fear of the unknown is huge. To move across seas and to start up all over again is definately a significant change. Am I scared? Most definately so! But fear is not going to bring me down. In fact! Im going to use fear to help me instead. To help me be more prepared. To steer me into the right direction. Do I make sense? Or is the meds taking over and Im just uttering rubbish?!
I grew so much career wise in the last 3 years to help me get to this stage. Sometimes I guess I do feel like Im being very comfortable in my life. I dont push nor look for challenges. But then again, looking back, i was faced with so many challenges outside of work which made work seem comforting and inviting. Insane right? Most people wouldnt want to think that work ruled their life. Or have work be a main thing in their lives.
I guess when my dream of getting married at 28 and having 2 kids by 30 didnt materialise, work was the only thing that I had going and damn was I good at it. Work had/has my heart! Sad but true.
This is funny coming from a girl who once believed that you work to live and not live to work!
SO! As I close my eyes and bid farewell to Yesterday, I shall leave a little light on to know that theres hope coming my way. Hope to happiness and right choices. That no matter what happens, I will be alright!
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